Disturbed

My hand cold on  
Mouse, mind  
Hollow, high  
On planes you  
Never dared  
Tread for fear  
Of disturbing me  
My eyes never  
Blink, my tongue  
Too sharp, death  
Always close  
Break me free 

After All

And when I go outside at night, for one last cigarette. And I sit down and light up. And I look up at the stars, looking down on me. And I hear a car on the road in the distance going... home? And I hear people laughing - at some party? And I hear rustling in the bushes at the back of our garden - a neighborhood cat on the hunt maybe? And I get up, put out my cigarette and go back inside. And I lock the backdoor. And I say goodnight to my son, sitting on the couch, the screen of his phone lighting up his face - "Night, dad." And I go upstairs and I lay down next to my love, already fast asleep. And I kiss her softly on the cheek. And I rest my head on the pillow. And I think: today wasn't that bad, after all.

Elusive

The dust never settles 
The wind never lies 
Our hearts go on forever 
The memory never dies 

Hear

Use me 
For your ideological 
Agenda as 
Much as you like 
Your truth is 
True 
As much 
As mine 

Future Holds

The straight line border
The dotted line
While nature struggles
The world is fine

Until it isn't
I don't know when
I live today
I'm just a man

Endings

working on making the end of the day come nearer faster and then the end and then the drinks and smokes and then it goes faster and faster and the day ends and i end till a new day and more work and drinks and smokes and endings

Pressure

I'm not missing out 
On a life that is not mine 
My world is here 
In my heart, taking me 
To where I need to go 

Chiming of church bells 
Wafting over rooftops 
Volume increasing on the wind 
The birds of the neighborhood 
Filling in the blanks 
I am writing against will 
And judgement 
I need to rest 

20/20

The book I read 
Through squinted eyes 
I don't subscribe to your 
Eyes, through your 
Eyes, my truth 
Gets skewed, my 
Unhinged posture, 
Arms wide, legs crossed 
Blood dripping from 
My side, tilting, I get dizzy 
I need my eyes 
To see 

Drafted, drowned, drained 
Puddle-wet, I see the night get darker 
Snuffed -- blanketed, looking through the pinholes 
At a starry sky