“Pointless thinking is worse than no thinking at all.”― Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore (Source: Goodreads)
I just cannot keep up with the tempo of Twitter anymore. Or I am definitely doing something wrong in how I handle stuff there. Update after update I try to give my attention to. But I fail. And, as much as I hate to say it, the same goes for the avalanche of new posts that keeps rolling in on my WordPress Reader. The more interesting people and blogs I encounter, the longer the list of updates that waits for me, every time I come back. So, what do I do? I come back more often of course! Yah… as you can guess, that is not the solution for my attention problem.
I want, no, I need to focus on what I am doing right now: writing. Wrangling my thoughts, bullying my mind to stay on track, letting things make sense again, at least for me. Picking someone else’s brain sometimes is awesome, but when after a while that is all I do, I have no room anymore to process stuff in my own head. I don’t know if that’s the same for everyone, but that is how it works for me.
Constantly trying to follow what everybody else is doing and thinking is not stimulating for me right now, it is numbing. My own thoughts get pushed out of the way by that growing pile in my head. There is such a thing as daily life also, you know? Work, family, friends and the distractions and challenges that come with those, they all eat up attention, time and energy.
And when things stay unresolved because I actually don’t deal with them, not really, that pile just keeps on growing. Picking one item out of it gets harder every time, because of the increasing amount of stuff that is there, all yelling out at me, in a cacophony of blurry priorities.
Okay. I think my weekend can begin now. It is getting dark and I am going to have drinks with my love. Have a great one.
Into the trees
Trees rustling above me in the gloomy evening, while I gaze at my shoes:
- Nine Inch Nails – The Perfect Drug
- A Perfect Circle – Judith
- Placebo – The Bitter End
- The Cure – A Forest
- Cabaret Voltaire – Sensoria
- Anne Clark – Our Darkness
- Asrai – In Front of Me
- Evanescence – My Immortal
- Thirty Seconds to Mars – A Beautiful Lie
- Gary Numan – Are Friends Electric? (AllSaints Basement Sessions)
- The Mission – Deliverance
- Joy Division – Love Will Tear Us Apart
- The Stone Roses – I Wanna Be Adored
- Manic Street Preachers – Motorcycle Emptiness
- Radiohead – Karma Police